Won't Give In

2011-02-07T02:42:00.000-08:00

Ooh Gosh...I just realise this is my first entry for 2011.0.0..I thought i update a few months ago.Time never wait for people.Despite having a lot of projects to be due,assignment to be done,test and exam on my way,I would never forget to enjoy when needed to.Before Chinese New Year,bought a lot of clothes.As usual,I try not to take it at heart.This matter is nothing to me,cause I have gone through some stuff that are worse than this.How good it is to be alone.However,there are still some good stuff that would happen,good people which are worth to be my friend.Actually there is no such thing as bad people,there is a reason behind in everything we do,we ourselves or even me,i admit that i am not a good person either.But my motto of life is never to harm a person as my conscience cannot take it.As long as I follow my set of rules,I will not forget who I am.Some people only know how to cherish when they lost it,isn't it too late?<('_')>

2010-11-14T00:49:00.000-08:00

Have been feeling very disappointed in certain people.I have learn not to treat ppl 100%,you don't know when they would abandon you one day.Some attention seekers people are very irritating.They try to "snatch" your friends when they don't like their friend.This people would not be truthful to you forever.Whatever,I am now trying to make friend with other ppl,my age range for friends is from 0-60 years old(believe it or not),I would love to know different kind of mindset from different people.I would live happier than you,I pity you being pester by that person forever.And one thing"YOU DERSERVE IT=),YOU ARE NOT EVEN WORTHY OF MY TIME.=)".Whatever happento you,is your business,ask that person to help you lo.I don't care about you anymore since you treat me like shit.From now on,I would do what i believe is right.
And for the attention seeker,get a life man.-.-

2010-09-16T09:58:00.001-07:00

After a long struggling of studies,I finally have the time to update my blog.Its been a long time since i update.This year 2.1 is the most difficult module i have ever go through,I tried my best.The rest leave up to God.Ahaha..I am now having my holiday while my friends is having attachment.I rather join them in attachment first,then i can enjoy one shot of 3 weeks holiday rather than now having holiday.
Its ok.Last week,went to have sakae buffet at cityhall with my "long last friends".Its been a decade of years since i saw them.Peipei is also having attachment now,wish her good luck then.Only one word,"You cannot change what people think about you,but you can change how you wanted to feel."Its like time passby like a breeze.Everyone is going to be in the society soon,no longer be "spoon feed".But that is life after all.
After attending my grandma funeral,I have seen all kinds of faces,how they treat my father.So i would do my best for everything to make him happy since he go through a lot.I can see that his heart is filled with disappointment and anger.But what we can do is to show them we are pretty satisfied with what we have.Our whole family would be happier than their family.I only have one father and mother,if i cannot treat them well,who will?
The thing for me is to let go.How they treat you just forget it,what goes around comes around don't you think? o.0

2010-07-05T09:54:00.000-07:00

Today went cycling with yanling they all at East Coast Park.I have bruises again on the leg,but this time is not that serious as i wore jeans.I just came back from my first attachment at TTSH,I learn a lot of things.I have learn what is the meaning of "reality","playing around with power".Most importantly,being humble is the main thing.I must always put myself in someone shoes before I think of myself.Even with a little bit of power,I should always think about how I get this power before I act.
For me,I have gone through a lot of harsh times until I am fully "armored".When people play "psychology" games with me,I would not even bother to think about it.I would just keep quiet,because I have learn how to control my emotion from this CA. x)
BUT JUST ONE THING,when I keep quiet,does not mean that I am scared of you.I just don't want to cause any problem.But if i cause problem,you better watch out.You would see a totally different me.I would not do such a coward act like sabotage,but I am not a pushover also.A lot of people say I am very patient,but they are totally wrong.-.-My patient has a limit too.Once it explode,it would be totally scary.

2010-05-25T07:41:00.000-07:00

Wah!!MY STRESS NOW IS AT PEAK LEVEL.haha..This term is driving me crazy,all assignment rushing in my direction,tests and etc..Going gaga soon.Now i understand what it is like to be a year 2 student..Everyday is until 6pm,and i sleep late everyday.My panda eyes are getting obvious each and every day.
I don't even have the time to go for jogging.The only relieving factor is listening to music.Life without music is damn boring!!Just done my presentation today,its a relief for me.Cause I typically don't like presentation.>.<
But sad,my holiday attachment is at TTSH,-.-..Its damn far far away wor.Feel like killing the schduler,people live at jurong,you arrange people at novena?Its like what the f?-.-
And I short of one good friend,he is not the same date of attachment as me.Well,so sad.This time i short of one good buddy for talking..Roar!This time attachment,I would be more careful.That incident at AH already cause me to shorten my lifespan...Gahh..I won't want to repeat my CA!!>.<

2010-04-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

First day of school and the whole campus is flood with people.The bus stop itself is already flood .And I need to squeeze through the crowd to get on a bus.And there is traffic jam on the way to school.I hate this kind of feeling of having to squeeze with so many people.But I saw a lot of first year all asking for directions,it remind me of the first day I went to Ngee Ann.I was walking in circle without realizing.And I heard a lot of people discussing on what CCA they should choose.Their actions really let me remember a lot of things.I went to school with shu ting today.I realize when we are talking on the bus,time flies by really fast.I find the duration of the journey too short for us to talk about loads of things.Can't blame me for that,its been decades of years since we meet up.But when we talk with each other,I realize we are more mature.As in not like last time ,so childish.Haha....In chinese there is a saying about"Sui yue bu rao ren",I agree.All of us are grown up,the way we talk changes.However,we did not have this barrier between us,we just talk whatever crap.I enjoy this feeling of talking without any barrier.So happy.xD
The sad thing for today is the lesson is so DIFFICULT!!>.< Without books,and the topic is such an alien language to me.I even have difficulty understanding.And i nearly slept during the lesson.Oh man...Otoke?xD
I can't give up halfway,I would piar all the way.Without books,i cannot understand anything.So tomorrow going to get all the books no matter what.Another sad thing for me,there are a lot of things I can't eat.I cannot eat seafood and chicken.So sad....T.T
Everyday to me is a surprise.Don't cha think? =)

2010-04-14T09:05:00.000-07:00

Finish my attachment 1 week ago.I learn a lot of things,and have a fulfilling experience.Some are quite beneficial,some are quite "scary".xD Someone told me that there is something unique about me that they like to work with me.This makes me happy enough as this prove that i am not such a detestable person.

4 more days and school reopen.I decide to let my leg have a rest.Have been standing 8 hrs for the past 3 weeks,even the veins are visible on my leg.So for the whole week,I would be staying at home watching drama,playing games.Wish I could go jogging,but my leg refuse.(an excuse? xD)I cannot believe I am going to be year 2,quite excited but feel kind of insecure.A fresh start,new things coming ahead.I just have to do my best,do not give up.=)

I am now learning malay,cause I think it would benefit for my future career.As I do not know how to interact with the malay patient,so it is good to learn another language.Actually,I am kind of greedy.I intend to learn Japanese and Malay language,but I think learning malay comes first as it is more beneficial.I have malay friends who can teach me.My father can also teach me a little,I mean all the basic one,i hope.xD

I have trouble finding the nutrients for my rose,yes,I am trying to grow a rose.I got it from one of my auntie.I went to research on the method to grow a rose,they are hungry plant that need nutrient,pruning and moderate amount of sunlight and water.I only given them moderate water but without any sunlight,no wonder they won't grow.
A group cannot be without a leader,or else, the harmony of the group would not be present.

And just something random,I know what is glaucoma.It is a disease in which the optic nerve is being damage,leading to progressive ,irreversible loss of vision.My friend have been pestering me about that question,but i just keep forgetting to find out the answer. =p

2010-03-14T09:35:00.000-07:00

Enjoy my meal yesterday at the fish manhattan (something like that,I don't know. xD).It's worth the meal,it can last from lunch to dinner to breakfast.Very big share,end up we were unable to finish.=x
Went to Bishan with Yanling to shop and bought some shoes,there is one pair of wedges I really like .xD I don't regret buying it because it is on sales promotion..Wahh..xD After next week,it would be the arrival of my attachment.I really hate the feeling of attachment drawing nearer,have to get yourself ready for anything.
Oh well~~Been listening to SHINEE song,I am not really a fanatic fan,I never went to any of their showcase in Singapore,But I like their song.Some members are really funny,especially Taemin ,I like the way he dance.His move are smooth and he is only 16 years old (I think?),imagine in a few years time?Jonghyun have a very nice voice.Key looks kind of friendly.SHINEE OPPAS FIGHTING.(Is that the correct way to say it?Jah..=o)
Nobody is perfect.Of course there are flaws also,it depends on how you react.Really not looking forward to April. ROAR!!!-.-

2010-03-02T08:22:00.000-08:00

I did not forget about this blog existence.Just did not know what to blog,but for these few months,I realized life would not forever be smooth sailing.Life was full of surprises,you would find it unbelievable that this kind of thing happen to you.Well,something which I did not expected happen to me and even drag one of my friend into it.And it nearly give me a heart attack,I am clear of one thing,if you did not do it,fight all the way.

Oh please,I am Heng ee leng leh.Why would i do sneaky things like this?What profit would i gain?I don't need to do this kind of thing to help myself,its just ridiculous larh.Well,It was resolved as it was just a misunderstanding,and I learn something from it too.Now,I do things very sensitively,I hate and did not want this kind of thing to happen again.And to drag a person down,is a more NO to me.

Well,year 1 would be over soon,there might be changes and shifting of classes.I treasure the times with my friends and really thank them for all the wonderful memories.Hahah...Would still be in contact..Hope so...Some time is not we wanted to change,but its the environment that moulded us into a different person.

2010-01-18T16:12:00.001-08:00

Today there is no NSL,so now slacking at home waiting for 10 am.Cause later having cmbio,however people always ask me,why do you always be so punctual for lesson?Why not you have a self declare holiday and whatever?I personally think skipping lessons is not something you will die,but this reflect on what kind of person you are.And if you fail that module,you would regret that what if I attend this lessons,I would understand more?I don't allow any regrets to happen ever again.=)
WELL,even though later is a only 2 hour lecture,but I will still go,not that it was conduct by the director,but I also want to understand more,take down important notes.Anyway,I would be going Bugis later,so why not go for the 2 hours.My friend all skip,but I won't follow them,I have the right to choose what I want,so stop tempting me to skip.x)Lately have been quite unlucky,things do not go as I predicted.I wondering why man?Hai....Guess I have to go jogging often to relieve stress.Haha...

2009-12-31T03:16:00.000-08:00

2 days ago,went to Jurong Point "hello!" shop to renew our contract and change phone.Finally,I can discard away my useless phone,the memory card have problem,I cannot store enough things inside.Sucks man.In the end,I am the one who pay for my own phone,If i lose it,I will cry siar.Haha..My phone is just like a pda,it can synchronise and go facebook,however need $$...Guess I would not use the internet on the phone that often.Yesterday went out with sharifah,she was lost at the new boon lay interchange,I was finding her around.I like the new boon lay interchange,at least it is not so warm during hot weather.We went to watch AVATAR in 3D format,at first,it is a bit dry,until the end,I did not blink throughout the movie.It was damn exciting and great. After that,we went to banquet for our lunch,and I ate ice cream for my dessert at Anderson.I have a crave for dark chocolate,It does not taste too sweet,that is what I like about them.
Today,my friends ask me whether want to watch AVATAR,they are too late.haha...A few more hours,it would be 2010.How time passes and I am going to be 20 soon.But still young ok!!!>.

2009-10-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

Just finish my last attachment in Alexandra Hospital,AM shift.For this past 3 weeks,I really have learn a lot of things,even though I make a lot of mistakes,but I learn from it and it will be nailed to my head forever and not to let it happen again.During the half of the attachment,feel like giving up as I feel tired and not used to the time shift.Lucky our CI is very kind,even though our sister is fierce,so manage to finish all core skills.We just do the basic thing ,overall it is a fufilling experience.I decided to be a nurse that care for neonates and i really look forward to next yr posting KK.xD
Having a goal in life really make your life more interesting.Just a random thought,life is really unpredictable.I remember in secondary school,my Poa teacher ask my class to write what you want in future,I remember i wrote nurse,But I did not expect now I would be learning about nursing.I do not know what will be in future,but i would try to work towards the future I wanted.=)

2009-08-29T22:02:00.000-07:00

Back for update.It's been donkey years since I update.Been busy with exam,schools.But exam is over now,my last paper was on friday,the damn anatomy paper.Well,its is like 50-50,either i sink or i swim.Now all the drama,manga,escape theme park,shopping are all waiting for me.heheeh..I would like to learn how to ride a bicycle,never tried before.My CA is at 22 september,so time to enjoy first.But one thing that make me nervous is this time CA,i have to perform more than 10 skills to pass.I was like oh no,what if i can't finish?That means i have to repeat CA again,oh well i have prepare myself.We must always be prepare for the worst right?
All of us are unique,we have our own way of thinking.So we cannot judge people in term of their weirdo thinking.In my class,there this person,the whole class hate and avoid him like a plague.Basically this person thinking have really a wide different from us,and is super straight-forward.That time we saw each other at the bus stop,he say hi to me,of course i reply.Then we start talking,after that i find out how lonely that person is,feel that no harm talking to him.My friends also say he is not a bad person,just sometime did not know how to continue the conversation he start,well this i agree.pfft*

Gotta go have my lunch,after that continue with my "Hitman reborn".haha...

2009-07-13T03:50:00.000-07:00

I am back..Today first day of school reopen,I get a headache when i reach home,this maybe due to long term of holiday,so when taking long-distance bus,headache erupted.Our NSL we learn about oxygen therapy,lucky the teacher never nag at me,but she reprimand us in front of everyone,like thinking that no one would do that.We first day learning and you expect us to absorb everything once and for all,what shit is this?=.=
After 5 weeks will be my exam,for this five week will be pack with practical practical and more practical.It's like what the hell,everything is rushed within this five weeks.Every second of time is important to me now.Would not be updating for months,most likely.
I hate people MIA,just pick up the damn phone already.This kind of people,i will not have the mood to find them.Forget it...

2009-06-24T03:46:00.000-07:00

Just came back from my attachment at orange valley.It's only for two days,so it's ok.Get to know different old folks,some are friendly,while some are quite aggressive in their behaviour.I don't blame them,it's because some have dementia.I also get to know a nice auntie,she would hold my hand and talk to me just for the sense of security.I also get to feed them porridge.After this attachment,my perspective change a little.
I saw some stroke patient laying on the bed,relying on tube feeding with some isocal drink,it seriously pains my heart.There is one patient when they insert the tube from her nose to her gastric,her facial expression is full of pain,but she cannot shout or cry as she have stroke.What I can do is hold on to her hand,give her a sense of security and moral support.Then I saw her smile,I was so happy and I seriously think she should smile more .=)
After what I have seen,I think whatever problem I am facing now is nothing compare to the stroke patient,they struggle to survive even in this state.What am i grumbling about?Haha
Next attachment will be at hospital,would have a lot of hands on,a bit nervous.=DJiayou...

2009-06-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

Gee...xD Have my attachment for this week,kind of boring,just stand there and watch.But the nurses over there are friendly,so no problem going through.I have observe a lot of things that I don't even know until now,what a greenhorn I am.Tehehe
Tomorrow is the last day of attachment,and then two days of break and Monday back to attachment again.But I think we would stand and observe again.Was rushing through my power point slide for tomorrow's presentation.Only three slide,should not be a problem.I even went so far to get the thumb drive from pioneer mall at 11pm.How stupid I can get.And I cannot open it in my computer.Bloody hell!
Red jumpsuit apparatus song are nice.=)
I appreciate your kindness.
But I would not walk back again.Please don't try to bother to bring me back.=)

2009-06-14T02:35:00.000-07:00

SHUT UP!YOU FAGGOT!
what right do you have to say this?-.-

2009-06-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

Back to revive this blog.Few days ago,just met up huiru for some studying at mac,we did study,but also talk.Today is my aap paper,well,it seriously suck.I think the teacher is going to glare at me again after my result.In the first place,i already know that she have some opinion about me,which i ignored.I have prepare myself to face her snobbish face.I think poly lecturer are different from secondary,they judge you by your result.If you excel in that subject,they will say you have put in effort,but that does not mean people who never ace in that subject did not put in any effort.Pui! to all lecturers who have this mindset. xp

I cannot change what people think about me,but i can change about how i think about myself.I think psychology is among all paper the one i am more confident on.=p
Having my attachment next week,kind of nervous as it is the most important module i have.

And another message for some people that categorize themselves until so "superior" that you don't even want to have a conversation with people who have leave.FUCK YOU LAR!-.-
Like we all care,is just that what is love your others more than yourself?What do you mean by not judging others?What do mean by you are disgusted by human?Don't use your stupid values to judge other people.Sometimes,choices are force by circumstances ,and we should respect them,not despise them.Well,this is the choice that I make,so i would never regret it.But one thing for sure,I never regretted going to church as I have known all kind of people,getting into quarrels,being controlled all that stuff which makes my blood boil and I don't want to elaborate.

What is really friendship?Think about it man.-.-

Given up already.You are nothing to me already.Just go away.!

2009-05-06T03:58:00.000-07:00

Back for some updates.Well the group work seems to have some progress.At least we would meet out to do it together.Anatomy still seems kinda confusing.
Today went for lunch at Sumo house.I ate curry udon,not bad.
Thats all for today,gotta go and study my MIC.

2009-04-25T07:34:00.000-07:00

Been a week since school started,I was still trying to adapt the lesson.
Cause all the modules look alien to me.And I need loads of knowledge to understand,especially AAP.It was all about bio,what bones,what anatomy.Damn,It's screwing me up.
Psychology and sociology are alien also.
And doing homework on the net was troublesome as i may not have the file inside the computer to open my homework.It's really stepping out of my comfort zone.The lecturer call me out to demonstrate my PPE,I was so panic that I keep doing a lot of things wrongly.Thank God my class help me,they show me hint like "No,it's the other side.",it makes me feel so embarassed.
But in life,there are lots of decision to make.Only you acknowledge your mistake,then you would strive to do better.
Yesterday went home with Peipei,I talk about all this to her and now I feel better.It feels good to have someone to share your burden.Then saw Wei hao,he ask me about where is "S.H.E".Still the same old him.
Gambatet nee.No point walking half-way.

2009-04-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

This blog is filled with dust now.Today went for Ngee ann poly induction day.How foolish of me.The first time I walk inside the campus,I follow the humanities pupil to their room,then some kind soul ask me where do you want to go?I tell them I am from HSN(health science nursing),they can even joke with me and say"HIgh school musical arh?!!!"At that time,I am already late for 30 min,so I am in a hurry.I was like ROAR!!!!

Well,it's a waste of time.I nearly fell asleep..haha...Luckily, I did not sign up for the FOC camp.Even if it is FOC,I also won't go for it.I have "camp phobia" you can say?Just tour around the campus,sweating like a pig as it is a sunny day today.50% looking forward to school reopening.The other 50% not looking forward in looking at that lecture notes.

I realise one thing,i was doing all the things myself today without anyone accompanying me.Buying lecture notes and t-shirts.Maybe I become more aloof or independent?Who knows?I am not someone who is so desperate to talk to someone.I can be noisy,but can be very quiet sometimes.Maybe i must improve in that?I am only noisy with someone i am comfortable with.

Hilary Duff-The beat of my heart
Yamada Ryosuke-Perfume

My favourite song for this week.Whee...

2008-11-19T05:02:00.000-08:00

Respecting others decision is a key.If you think what you do would make you happy,just do it like having a goal in life or whatever.

Don't waste an opportunity.

Just clear away all my books for secondary,from sec1 to 5.The rubbish I have can occupy my living room .The dirt collected can suffocate me.I even throw away a lot of things in the past.All the meaningless shit,just throw it away.Cause whenever i look at it,I would laugh my ass off.
How foolish I am,being toss around like a clown and still being obedient.

But I would not throw away my encouragement card.It's still feel good looking at them.At least it's an effort of others.Lol.

If you did nothing wrong,don't be afraid of others.Like I give a damn!
x(

2008-11-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

Fatigue overwhelming me.Damn tired,everday sleep from 3-6 pm.For last week,I went to splurge money again at far east.I was feeling guilty as I got what i wanted but my friend was still searching every where for what she wants.Gomen neh...>.<
Well,at least i give it a try .Got it a not who knows?I think about 90% won't get it.Hehe...
My doors are shut.Who is the one who can open that door of mine?

2008-10-30T07:31:00.001-07:00

Kekekez...Exams are over.The day after tomorrow,I am going to "burn" my books.Wahaha...Going to throw away things,looking forward to the future with a smile.
Controlling emotion is not easy to start with.But I am not young anymore,going 19 soon.Oops..So it's time i become more stronger and stronger even though people still call me "xiao mei".I am not losing to these people.x)
Life is full of new challenges,there would be lots of doubts when we accept a challenge in our life.But we would face it sooner or later,why not face it now?It help to mould us to be stronger,which is a benefit. xD
And I certainly think we should not expect to much.For example,you bought a $10 meal and you expect $20 service,oh please forget about it.Being too almighty might bring shame for yourself.Some people are really fucking irritating.Thinking they are almighty,that customer are always right.Everyone has a limit ok?Don't know what"If your boss is here,you all won't do this kind of thing"Oh,what fucking shit is this?So what if you use the boss name to give us pressure?Do you think we would be frightened by such word?Only know how to complain,does this means getting high education means must look down on people doing service line?
Yes.I know i am use vulgarities,but it just burst out.Cause people who know me should know,threatening sure does not pleasant me at all.Pathetic.
I am just too tired.Tell me,what should i do?

2008-10-24T19:25:00.000-07:00

6 more days and my exam is over.Don't ask me how my exam is,I know myself.You reap what you sow.Who is not easily lead astray?Cause we are still young,learning what life is about.So this is not a reason we can blame ourselves.For me,everything is fine,just somethings that cause me to feel so out-of-place.I sense that after my exam,something would happened.it's okay.I shouldn't behave like that.
Isn't it what i wanted?=)

2008-10-16T01:27:00.000-07:00

Fatigue....Damn tired now as yesterday I came home too late.Yesterday went to westmall coffee bean to study.After that peipei came,teach me a little maths until 8.00.Then after that went to sakae for our dinner.My stomach hurts from the ice blended coffee i drink.So i only drink hot green tea and Ramen to stop the pain.
We talk about all sorts of things as usual,after our dinner,we went to swensen's to buy ice cream as she have the free ice cream voucher.(It's a blessing but a kg to my weight =( . )
Then we talk about Arashi.We both like the song "Love so sweet".While eating the ice cream,walking around,we keep humming the song and take turns to sing.Everyone thought both of us are crazy.My bro just bought a headphone for $100+,what a spendthrift he is.But it's a blessing to me as when he go back to his camp,I can "lend" it.xD
Well of life's like that so relaxing,that would be great. Enjoyed myself yesterday.I still have 8 november,after 31 october for me to enjoy.Kekezz.....Just do my part,cannot stop people from disliking me.Heck care.
I think too much or is it real?Don't tell me is real.Got to test it out.xp

2008-10-08T03:13:00.000-07:00

Suddenly feel like updating.I don't feel like updating recently cause I just don't feel like.i am starting to mugging now(of course not so hard) while my nose is running.Time flies,now going to have exam.
I personally think everyone would have a bit of jealousy in us.We might envious of someone and wanted to win also.But one thing in mind,over jealous is not a good thing,it might ruin something.Everyone have something that they can do and something they cannot do.Don't push yourself so much if it didn't go well.Haha.=)
I think I now have more freedom.I am already a grown-up,even though in some places I am consider still a kid,but its time to make my own decision and not to follow anyone anymore.Supervision for me is ok,but over-supervise would make me feel irritated.
If we did not meant what we say,then don't say it.Don't lie to someone when we make a promise.It reflect what kind of people we are.Cheating on our good friend is a no good thing.They try to help us but we ended up fly their aeroplane ,do you think it's an appropriate thing?
For me,I think a good friend is someone who you can trust,who comfort you when you are down.MOST IMPORTANTLY,won't backstabbed you behind or gossip about you and give you a "bao gong" face like you own them something.If we don't try to be giving sometimes,how can people accept us?
Of course,all human even me have countless flaws,but we must at least have a principle for ourselves to guide us.
God,can you help me?

2008-08-19T04:39:00.000-07:00

Been studying at jp library with peipei for the past two days.It's been a long time i see her,so we talk whatever things we could think of.Then we went to sakae for dinner,thats when i know how a person change as time passes.In terms of mindset and goal.
I have not been praying to God for a long time.But i take the courage to pray for my problem.It works and so i was thinking:What i should do?What can I do?"
When i think of the past and the outcomes,it really discourages me to believe again.Because i look at how the competiveness of the society influence a person behaviour to change.Relationship become more awkard,unsettled misunderstanding.I am tired of all this shit,I am not being emo or what,i am just stating the fact.=p
Just talk to shu ting on the phone and confide her in a lot of things.Thanks buddy,you are the best!

2008-08-03T01:51:00.000-07:00

Haha.Having an "ouch" day today.My hand are "torn and tattered".Then i request to do outside.xD
Discover a lot of secrets today.Life is unpredictable.Sometimes what i don't expect to happen really happened.Hai..Yesterday went back to service,how nostalgic.Then we went to the don't know what prata shop to eat,after that went Bishan junction 8 to walk around.
When i reach home,the whole family had a beer session.We talk a lot of things.We just spill everything out when we had the beer session.What i think is,isn't it tired to kick up a fuss for such a minor thing?Why do you make things hard for others and yourself?It's just a minor thing and you make it sounds serious?Perfectionist are like that.Putting on a strong front is tired too.Why must you wait for others to open their mouth before you can open that gold mouth of yours?People don't owe you a thing,it's how you handle it.I always tell myself,never break the trust of someone who believe in you.No,I won't tell you even if you beat me to death.xD
Life is all about choosing,if you choose the wrong path,it's all gone.Confidence are needed in choosing life.

2008-07-24T01:49:00.000-07:00

Today take over the cashier for a while.My palms are sweating.But never mind,not much people.I did commit some mistake but thank God that Khai Sien encourage me not to be dishearten. I was talking to Fiqah and sad!Jane today last day,she has to go back in Clementi.She is the kindest person i ever met.She's the one who inspire me a lot.Even when i commit mistakes,she won't scold me but remind me nicely.Thanks a lot.With best regards to her.
Well,as usual,there are some people who are "kind",they speak sarcastic words to you.I just ignore it.Because i am taking one step at a time.Tomorrow our stepmother is coming.And she is staying the whole day.AHHH.haha...
I don't know why everyone call me auntie.One Justine is enough,now even Jin Fu..??Do i look so old?Lately,I can predict something accurately.When i predict this would happen,it would definitely happened,it's just like i expected.Can i predict my exam question?xD
Might be catching a movie on Sunday to relieve stress.Ahahaha..
Its time.=)

2008-07-21T03:30:00.000-07:00

Kekekez......Shop till i drop yesterday.I meet Fiqah at 1.00pm but overslept on the mrt and find myself ended up at Kallang.So late for 30 mins.We went to wisma to buy cheap dress...Spend a lot of $$.Then we chat about a lot of things on the mrt.Inorder to relieve stress,we make fun of Serene.Yup..I know,we are bad,but who cares?And then *piak*,goes my heels.Cause i was wearing heels walking the whole orchard,=p
We think that almost half of the things we hate become the things that we have to accept.So try not to hate people.xD
Today saw yaoye and kiok ann.So sian diao,then kiok ann ask me nvr study meh?No....The truth would be out soon.
Should I go back?-.-Confused.

2008-07-09T02:42:00.000-07:00

Haha!!I am feeling way better.Cause I choose the way I feel and love myself much more.Today tried the 85% dark chocolate.Yucks!!!Its like drinking coffee without sugar.Eee......I just ignore that person.Do what I think is best. xD
Keep typing the wrong order,I was like "What The"..*Shake head*.It's Ok.I do my best.
A person patience have a limit,even a elastic rubber band would break itself.
You have to be weak inorder to be strong eh?o.0
I think next week I would went to JSS to gt back my Testi and cert.Who cares?Haha...

2008-07-07T21:33:00.000-07:00

HAI......Lost for words.I am disappointed for being hide in the dark,but what can I do?-.-
Sometimes you tend to know something,actually you know nothing eh?=D
A brand new day for tomorrow.Yay!

2008-07-05T02:55:00.000-07:00

Well,going to have a personal blog.This blog i would still update,but more personal things would be updated on my personal blog.Just had a black chocolate,the first bite was heaven.It really relieve stress.
Everyone was asking me how am i doing?Honestly,Not too well.I am not me lately.
It started again.Grr....
Elderly mind are much more narrow.If we go against their law,they get angry easily.I really don't know how am i going to interact with them.
I personally think that they should change their point of thinking.If you still insist of using scolding someone to teach a person,you are wrong.Maybe 50 years of generation gap really matters.
HAHA....Time and tides do not wait for people.1 year time is passing away..

2008-07-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

Finish watching the movie "Get smart".Its very stupid,but i was laughing like mad.Anyway,it's free,why don't I go?=p And have free popcorn,cheesy hotdog and ice kacang?=p
Wish 19 july would come faster.People say i look fierce when i did not smile,they say i am too "cool".o.0...Can't help it,eyes too small.
It all about attitude,can't help it.I would just ignore those stupid remarks.
I should start thinking about my future eh?"God?what do you think?"
I need a pair of running shoes.=(
Quality,not quantity.
Sometimes you claim to know something,actually you know nothing.

2008-06-25T07:16:00.000-07:00

My current mood is SUPER PISSED OFF.
Last minute back out on an appointment is not a very appropriate thing.One or few times is okay,but 3 or 4 times is too much.
You should show some respect to the person you are asking out.Last minute can't make it at least a phone call,only a few seconds is sufficient.At least remind the person,it is basic manners ok?
Well,should not depend on others too much.All humans are imperfect,they would put themselves first more than others.And,we should have our own thinking and not follow others along.If you think you have to say no to certain things,just said it.At least you are frank enough to that person.
What a load of rubbish!La,la,la.=(

2008-06-19T08:29:00.000-07:00

Mind your own business.
Don't ask.
Don't gossip,it won't be beneficial to you.
I won't be so easily taken in.
Went shopping with Yvonne today.Had a great day.
Rather than being a country bumpkin.=)
I believe there is a reason behind everything.
God's plan,really.x)

2008-06-18T07:09:00.000-07:00

My current mood can be known through this music.
Simple plan-I am just a kid
=) = >=(

2008-06-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

Tired~I think i would explode one day.I was posted to Hua Yi Secondary to take my exam.Still have to take bus..Quite lazy.My brother went to NS,now i am "conquering" his computer.Wahaha...
Well,I think hurting ourselves is quite foolish.I go through this thing before.Before i know Christ,I cut myself last time whenever i have problem.Not you,but i personally think inflicting physical pain is way better than emotional pain.But now i think back,i was really foolish enough.What's the point?
That will only hurt those around that love you,and it cannot solve anything.Instead of taking it out on yourself,why don't you be more optimistic?Well,now whenever i have problem,I either seek the word of GOD for consolation,or went for a run to calm myself down.
Even if i cut my hand off,the problem still exists.If you keep running away,the problem won't go away.Lately,my life is not so smooth-sailing.A lot of things happened,but i would face it bravely.Cause I am not facing alone,i am facing with God.
In life,we would face a lot of discouragement,negative remarks,ugly side of the human heart,dignity being step on.But i believe this plan installed by God have a purpose.
I am not running away now,but i have my difficult situation.So if those understand me well would know it.
Rotting at home nowadays.
Its so hard for me.
I need a pillar.=o

2008-06-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

I believe that if you really have work hard and still failed,it's nothing to be depressed about.It's not the end of the world.In life,there are still a lot of plans God have installed for you.If you depressed about a failure,then you are too WEAK!(Sorry for being straightforward)
As long as you did your best,there should not be any regrets,unless you think you should have done better,then you would be disappointed.
This story i heard from someone was true.The NBA superstar Michael Jordan,i heard that last time his basketball is not as good as now.He worked really hard until he even sleep on the court.And now he is a pro.Can a baby walk if he does not know how to crawl?For a lot of famous ballet dancer,why can they display such graceful dance?It's because they PRACTICE,PRACTICE,PRACTICE!They even sprained their ankle sometimes.
"Failure is the mother of success".Even though some of us might think we are not good at anything and always failed,if we don't give up,there would be a day you can do it.
Ignore other people opinion.They have the right to sound everything out.They only see the present and not the future.It would not be worth it to get a heart attack for this kind of people.
No one in the world owe you anything,sometimes we should appreciate what we had.
I may not or very imperfect,because i am a human.But if anyone need a listening ear,can call 97382761.Its 24-hour.
I wish this year would pass quickly.Looking forward for next year when i am back in school.xD
I would like to do the things i like.x) No constraint.The gap need to be filled up.
Letting go day by day.
Damn it.It's so tiring.

2008-06-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

Have a terrible headache cause by lack of sleep.Can't get to sleep lately.
Today just went for an injection,the doctor distract my attention by talking to me.Then after that just went for a jog.Actually should be meeting Peipei they all,but I need to rest so ended up did not go.Just finish watching "bullfighting",i like their song,but their storyline seems familiar.I started watching the "Nodame Cantabile",it's hilarious.Of course,i would put my priority right,i won't neglect my real goal.
Headache again,shall not blog any further.Grr >.<
Let time erase everything.
For now it will never change.
=)

2008-05-25T10:49:00.000-07:00

Control!Control!
As times goes by,our challenges in life just get tougher.Our changes in personality,maturity and way of thinking are different.We have our own decision and we want to make our own decision.
But one think for sure,God would not change.He will be with us through all circumstances,no matter how strong the storm is,he will be beside us.This point itself just make me feel relief.
At least there is something that won't change.=p
But changes makes a person grow,God create changes to mold a person.We cannot be stuck in where we are forever,or else we would lose out everything.
Getting out of our comfort zone is important,or we won't be able to move forward and experience more.Life is not a bed of roses,but you can make a lemonade if it throws a lemon to you.
Once I decided on something,it's final.Throw away all the awkward feeling,trust God 100%,no 99.999%.=D
I have another resolution,is to be optimistic.(Not setting it for fun)
Once i decide on something,it's final.And I would definitely do it.
Dump it away!!!Shoo!!!Depend on God,he is the dependable of all dependable.

2008-05-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

Woo~It's damn hot.The rising heat in Singapore is so terrible.My house is like on fire.Just came back home.Today meet for shepherding,the MRT announcing went haywire and the first stop is Tampanies.Oh I wish so!=p. Poor me reach at 5.00,whereas abi reach at 5.30.I have to wait 30 mins.In order to kill time,I read a book.
Then when she reached,we went to Ikea for dinner.The meal was damn full
The whatever Swedish Thingy.Yummy but cholestrol level on the highest peak.
Well this is just to reward myself for running twice a week.It's already a miracle.This help motivates me.But today,my pocket have another hole liao.=(
Then abi bought herself a red table,a "chibi" table.But it was so big,she have to carry it herself.Just borrow myself two books,i don want to waste this year away.I don't wanna miss a thing.
I want to improve my self spiritually,physically and mentally(i am normal=p), English and also manage my time well.I try to follow my timetable i plan for myself.And i listen to BBC NEWS more often.
One more thing,follow the holy spirit rather than your emotion.A lot of time,i become a slave of my emotions.=( And its pretty stupid.But i think again,if God get control by his emotion of fear,today i will not be here.Ya...Thinking about this will pull me back to where I am.
My resolution for this year:
Improvement in English.
Run more often,improvement of stamina.Weight management.
Don't care about what other thinks,what matters is what God think of you.
Complete my connection journal.(It's damn sophisticated English=<)
Love your enemies,keep them in prayer.
I am in love with strawberry.=p
I know where I am going to walk next.
God of the possible of all impossible.=p

2008-05-06T10:21:00.000-07:00

Miu Imaidegawa

2008-05-03T10:45:00.001-07:00

What Heng Ee Leng Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-04-25T08:56:00.000-07:00

Think I am becoming a lazy bum lately this days.Let me squeeze my entry for two days ago and today's entry together.Two days ago,went to AMK ministry house for cg.It's like taking forever from my house to ang mo kio.Is just like taking MRT from west side to east.-.-''Had fun for cg,I lead games.God speak to me a lot.Call the Mr Tan and say all the truth out,i don't care about the result,but i feel relief,it's like a burden liftened.After calling,I smiled.=)
Then today,Yvonne and I had our shepherding together.We went to Bugis library for our shepherding.At first,we went to turn some sandwich from the machine,and whole lots of coins dropout.Haha..Because the whole study lounge is occupied,we went outside of the study lounge for shepherding.
Today's teaching is meaningful,and also a reminder for me.xp It's the Arete camp teaching.
Then after that,Yvonne went home while Abi accompany me to LJS for dinner.Even though she din eat anything,but we share a lot about ourselves.Then i share about the verse that God implanted to me for my youth camp,I crack my brain and think,but i still don gt it.
Well,I would try my best to know the contact well.My brother is going to NS soon.My mom seems to be acting strangely lately.Is it because of this reason?Well,even if she din say it,from her actions,i can see that she doted on him a lot.
I want to exercise my gifting.o.o
A QT a day keeps Satan away.

2008-04-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

Just smile and everything would be fine.=)

2008-04-13T00:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday service was great.It's been a long time since i went to the front for praise and worship.Anyway,I went all the way to the front.It was a great feeling and God spoke to me a lot.
Before service,announcement was made on who my shepherd .Expected...=E
HK would be transferring to NYP.Well,will miss her sense of humor.
After that,went for fellowship.Bought the pineapple rice that Yvonne introduce,it's nice.And we talk about a lot of things.
Saw Trisha and "AH ma"yesterday,cool "bull rings".=D
Those who are my shepherd before would understand how i "bully" my shepherd.WAHAH(just jokin=))
Borrowed some books yesterday,to increase my knowledge.I just can't find the book regarding about human body.
MON-WED evaxing at SImei,gotta jiayou.I believe God put me in this group for a reason.I want to find out the reason soon.

2008-04-02T09:57:00.001-07:00

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

2008-03-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

Back from chalet.It's pretty bored on the daytime,cause there is nothing to do.The mosquito over there is getting fatter.Cause they keep sucking my blood,i was bitten all over.-.-"

Day 1,I and shuting stay downstairs to watch television,there is only one room in the chalet and the room is occupied,so we have to stay downstairs.Before that,we went to CHEERS to buy some night snacks.Day 1 is a very boring day.Then at night,huiru arrived,she is still the same.Only~~Hehe,you know i know.=)so we ate at macdonalds.And some funny moment happened.And we laugh like nobody business.And after that play wif YaoYe and Weihao cards,they both are very funny.The way they "suan" people is so out of question and funny also.
Day 2,huiru leave for work.And i and shuting went to the swimming pool.She is slping at the benches.And i chatted with Peipei for 1 hours.After that go back to the chalet and we chatted about some other things.There is always secrets that we dun wanna tell even to our closest peers.So i don't even bother chasing after the person to ask.After that play daidee,i learn how to play,and it is pretty fun if you know.And den after that learn how to play mahjong.I sucks at it,i don't know how to play.After that,all of us collasped at 6+ am.I collasped at the mahjong table,still bitten by mosquito.After that,we pack our things and leave.

Well,most of our classmate is doing well.A lot of people get into RP and NP.I have to jiayou for my retaking of o level.=)

It sucks on being left behind.

Feel like putting back my tagboard.=0
Don't just talk about it.I would see how long you will last yourself.=0

2008-02-29T03:46:00.000-08:00

Well,i resign from my work.During this months of work,I have seen all kinds of people.In this world,there is all kind of people.People who are inferior,who like to complain,people who are wearing a mask infront of you.I also discover a lot of secrets that i wish i don't know.But it's a fun working experience.
Forget it.EVERYTHING IS A PAST.
Now looking forward,waiting for my April intake posting.I am very unlucky,but being slow is not anything wrong.Taking a longer route would enable me to learn more things.Hehe.....I may be disappointed firstly,but i have to live on.
Someone tell me before:"Humans should not stop on their way,or they would not discover the excitement of what would happen next,they should move forward."
Whether it's doing business,study,in everything you do,you must be able to face reality.I have accept the plan that God's giving me.
Our class chalet is coming soon,looking forward to it.
Yi qie shun qi zi ran.

2008-02-12T22:45:00.000-08:00

13 more days to my resignation.Once i make up my mind,it's final.My colleague kept asking me what is the reason?Well,this reason is a bit personal,and i want to get out of it.The other reason is bad influence.Scolding bad words is a common sight over there.It spoil our image,especially for a girl.No,no,no.But i learn a lot from this months of work,learn to control my own temper,and also let me know all the kind of customers.
I am really confused,I really don't know what to choose.But i believe there is a way.I regret!!!Arrh!!!
Zhe shi qi,lao tian rang wo kan dao ni de zhen mian mu,zhen hao.
=)

2007-12-26T08:37:00.000-08:00

Today is my off day.So staying at home to do some blogging.I feel that time passes very fast.Tomorrow still have to rush to work.This Christmas I am at zone 1.I did nothing.Cause all my work are being done by the part-timers.They are amazing,their speed of working is incredible.Haha..And Christmas eve is so quiet.It does not seems like christmas eve.But our poor cashier,we attack the cashier,spraying at her.And our "bar man",and that Chung,he spray me.=.=
And the K8 people,don't even dare to let us bring the bill in.Cause they are afraid that we will spray them.Sianz!!
As times passes,it's going to be 2008 soon.xD
And the day to get our result draw even closer.=(
Well,people been sending me messages,I notice it,but i don't know what to reply,it's not like I ignore it deliberately.

2007-12-09T23:34:00.000-08:00

I think having your own decision is very important.Don't always let other people to decide for you.Being obedient is good,but being too obedient is being too reliance on others.Don't be a puppet and be play around.I am not that kind of people,so don't play around with me.=)
Can't you understand our situation?Yesterday i was so dulan.AAA,y am i blogging?Ain't i in camp?Because of some issue,I was really angry.We can also not obliged to go?Can't I?(I am now pretty guai lan le)I was scolded by my father,and everything become my fault too.This is the first time i am so angry.
Please have your own opinion.Don't always listen to what other people ask you to.Don't be like a clown being play around.We even take 4 days off for the camp,what is the outcome?-.-

2007-12-08T00:06:00.001-08:00

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on,
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.
I turn to you...

2007-12-07T23:33:00.000-08:00

I really hate the feeling of being compare with another person.It's a matter of pride,not jealousy.Some colleague of mine,his mouth just can't shut up.It really makes me feel so ****Indescribable feeling....Shit....And in human's eye,if they think you sucks,then no matter how dilligent,how good you do,they ignore it.Why was i always the one who is so unlucky?I really don't understand.
Yesterday was an emo day for me.I whine and whine,then the Yifan saw it,he also very shock.I just can't control my emotion.But yesterday was a busy day.The time passes very fast.Hope today not so busy.

2007-12-01T22:44:00.000-08:00

Been working for the past weeks.There are some people who are very nice,some sucks to the core.Tomorrow off day,yay!Can rest le,very tired leh.I was wondering if Kenny test us cut room,will we fail?Cause some of our staff did nt pass his stupid test.Haha...Yesterday Jack Neo came to MS kbox,his son is so cute,ordering drinks himself,he look exactly like his father.
The pot calling the kettle black.

2007-11-18T03:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday,we come together to play game.That is the second time i ever play games.It's pretty fun.I lose to Eugene,-.-....Hui ru is at Taiwan now,at rural side.Quite boring hah!!=p
But we have to shoulder our group responsibility,haha......Yesterday,I and sherlyn went to Taka,guess who we see?Mr Dimus Choong,at first,our back is facing each other.But when I turn around,I find his back a bit familiar.Then the moment he turn his head,he was staring at us.Then after that,we ran away.It's a bit embarassing.And I still owe him $7.95.xD(That is not the reason i run away),Its a long story.And he is not teaching my school now,he is at Unity Secondary School.
As i was on my way back,I saw kk,so we chat all the way on the bus.She just came back from Yew Tee CC.When she talk about it,I feel so guilty.Don't know when I am going back to CO...Because 29 would be the concert.And I have forgotten all of the SYF pieces.Headache!!Headache!!!I just don't wanna see the SOB(That is her name Xp )
For camp,there is only usher(I donnoe the spelling),so maybe I would consider that option.No housekeeping for me =p.
I really don't like to saw a person dark side.Even a person whom you think might be nice to have a dark side.And when you ask them,they stammer.So people are not perfect.x)Gonna go plan what i am going to do next week.x3

2007-11-07T08:20:00.000-08:00

Today went to co.It's been a long time since i went back.CO standard increase.Yay!But,i am stuck with ZHONGHU!=( It's ok,anyway we are just performing for the second half of the concert.Wee..When I went back,I really feel old.xD Like we are outdated in this CO..Haha...Me and my extrodinary imagination...Now i am blogging in the dark,cause my room's light spoiled.GTG...

2007-11-04T21:07:00.000-08:00

Yoyo!!Back to blogging.It's been a decade of years since i blog.'O' level is going to come to an end.I am so excited.Today,i realize one thing.I saw the ugliness of human sinful nature,of course i am included in it.Everybody is not perfect,so i will try my best to be perfect.Especially selfishness is the root of human nature.I despite selfish people.Just like I despite myself sometimes.Because sometime i tend to fall in this category.Of course,I repented.Don't try to guess what is it.You definitely won't know it.
IT's OK.....Take it as I am being too sensitive or what.I shall be on-guard.x)
Today's social studies paper is ok.Population and sustaining came out.I studied both...Thank God.
Today me,huiru and shuting went to measure the blazer.Wednesday still have to attend CO practise.GRRRRR
Still deciding on whether i should attend.
GOTTa went for job-hunting.xD
A lot happen during this exam period,the first ever tedious paper is english and maths all the way on monday.I nearly died at the exam hall.So tiring.From 8am-5pm.And without rest.-_-
After tomorrow,Youtube and playing of games for me.xD
HENG EE LENG IS BACK TO ACTION.YO!=D

2007-09-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hi!!!I am back to blogging.Today our church have our 16 anniversary,it's awesome.Today west wear our west t-shirt to the anniversary.Our WD1 shirt is glittery red.Some of the "WEST" word printed on t-shirt have drop down.Cause they use washing machine.... Haha...=)
Then during the anniversary,i listen to most of the chinese part.xD
The performance by the hope kids are great,they are so cute,wearing white,like little angel.=)
After that,we take our own West and WD1 photo.Then after that,take MRT with Hui Chuen ,Sherlyn and all the Hua yi girls.I was dropping dead,people who know me well,they should know I have car-sick and MRT sick.Whenever I take long distance,I will get very tired.
When I am young,it is even worse.I remember that time,our whole family travel to Malaysia by car.And i was vomitting non-stop on the car.So from then on,I was leave under my relative's care.And my brother get to go to Bangkok and other countries.What a regret for me.
So today I take from Pasar Ris to Boonlay,It was a tedious journey for me,I won't vomit until my whole stomach turn upside down,but i will feel sleepy.So i din talk much on the MRT.
After that,Huichuen take 242 with me and turn 99 to go home.When I got home,the first thing i do is stuff tissue into my ears.Then when my mom nag at me ,I din not hear anything and just say"Sorry","Yes,yes,yes".Even though i am going 17,but what my mom do is a way of showing concern.So I don't blame her for treating me like a kid.=)
I am going to zzZZ now.Tomorrow still need to study.xD
Last but not least,Hebrews11:6.
And application for today's anniversary teaching:
Attitudes->Altitudes
=)Ciaos.

2007-09-14T05:48:00.000-07:00

Change your destiny,do not let your destiny change you.

2007-09-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

Hi!I am back on blogging.=p
Have my prelim from yesterday until today,hai....xD
The chemistry and physics paper is super difficult.
I won't self-prophecy,but i won't guarantee i will get good results.To admit it,My chemistry is last minute brush-up,i did not put in any effort.I only put in effort on my combine humans.
By the way,for maths paper 1,for whole level of secondary 5,only two person pass.Not counting those who take o level maths last year.I only got one word,HAi.....
Tomorrow having practical test,can sleep more.It starts on 11.00am.
Now i don't have the mood to study,so come update my blog.Cause i do not know what should i study.
If anything happen,I have other plans.
But i know nothing will happen,because God is with me.=)
GOnna go choke on some maths TYS.-.-

2007-08-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

Hi.....Haha...Got back my chinese result,it sucks man....-.-
Weep for two days...ahhaa...
I don intend to retake,i got other subjects to focus.
Super sad lor...Yesterday went service,i was the first one to reach pm.:\
Been very stress lately.Whenever i was doing my work in class,lets say it is maths,shuting will stare at me.Then after that day,she will do maths also.She is making me so stress up,STOP LOOKING!!!!xD
It's very irritating when u r doing your homework and someone is always staring at you.Typical Singaporean....haha...me too larh.x)
Today have to go help people tuition again.wahbiang....furthermore,i don't really like his mother.For one more week,i will be as free as a bird on Sunday.

2007-08-11T21:22:00.000-07:00

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You Are 38% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue.

While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow.

And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check.

You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

How Angry Are You?

2007-08-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

Back to blogging....xDRealli love todae sermon.It helps to reflect abt our life.I need improvement in my prayer ...xD I love todae's harvest meeting.Thru Dewen's teaching,God speaks to me a lot...It's so fruitful today.
2 days ago national day,our girls cg go queue up for donut.TELL YOU,that donut is super nice.xP All the donuts are finished by my family.They gobble everything.Then after that go for shepherding.I seek my shepherd help about the verse God prompt me during the camp,it scares me.But also help me to reflect about my life.For the two months,i have been working real hard.Finish all the maths paper given by mr low.The next target is my maths tys.Then my physics ,chem......POA i will try to finish it.English, I have been practising the tys.
On mon,no matter wat grade i gt,I will work even harder.The national day concert is super boring.I only like the modern dance item,and of course CO....It's been a long time since we sit down and watch the concert.For the 4 yrs,we have been joining the orchestra and perform together.Thinking about it makes me happy.=)
I realise God makes a great impact in my life.If i had not know him,i might still be the kind of person i am not make to be.Mom's mood have been great lately,don know why.
Last but not least,the verse of the day and it appears on today's sermon.
Jere 33:3
Call to me and i will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.

Hello GOD?=D

2007-06-27T03:39:00.000-07:00

Haha...It's been a long time since i blog.Becos sch has reopen,i have loads of things to do.Teacher have been stressing us abt 'o' level things,night classes.My parents too..Haha..=/
And our class have change 2 teachers,chinese and CME.The new chinese teacher is not bad.I understand what she is talking about.Well,miss ng ching has leave,even though before that,i thot she leave,i will be very happy.But not really,to tell u the truth,She is a vry good teacher,she knows what a pupil need.And treat us like friends..All the best Miss ng.X)
Just now having Jurong caregroup,i enjoy the fellowship.That Eugene,-.-,he burp in front of my face..So annoying...Then we keep crapping at KFC,we did a lot of stupid stuff.We kept talking so loudly,then we imagine having a big grp,Jurong occupying the whole KFC in TAmAn JuRong,Singing grace together...Woo...8)We even mixed chilli sauce wif potato...Err,shall nt elaborate further..But it's vry fun.=)
And for lessons,I nearly died in chem lesson..It's so tiring...1 and 1/2 months to Prelims...So fast...No time to procastinate...>=)
And the lesson for maths is improving,tHe probability is easy....
This is a calculation for those buying TOTO larh..Using probabilty...E.G for toto,there is 0000-9999 number u can choose.And there is only one chance of winning TOP prize.xD
Using probabilty,use 1 divide 10000....The chance of winning is 0.0001...This is what the teacher teach us...xD So it's a waste of $$ larh...Haha...Shall show my mother this method,to let her cut down her habit of buying TOTO.
Since i will be spending my time studying,I will nt be blogging for 2 months.=)
Gotta go.....JHN 14:1
AHDios..=)

2007-06-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

Haha......Just come back from camp.xD
From this camp,i learn a lot......Haha....Even though the camp nite games are cancel
But i noe new friens in this camp....Yeh....
During the nite of worship,I tell God abt my struggles...
God spoke to me alot.....Lift all the burdens to him...Lift wateva u din surrender to....
After lifting to him,I feel better...Yeh....God put a burden in my Heart ..
REalli..Yes!We Jurong do not have enough time alreadi......We have no time to continue living in comfort zone..
3 more months...And o lvl coming....And time for us to step down...No...Jurong cannot become bo tak.
Impossible....No way...I pray i will be like on fire in the heart...
Haha...Wats my vision for God?Has any of u have any vision for God?
My vision for God is to go other countries to plant churches,use my gift of techings....
Haha...Amen...

2007-06-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

Wahaha.....todaes seminar is fun...xDIt teaches us to learn how to interact with tone,good listening...The preacher is super funny...haha...Hmm....I realli look forward to camp.11-14th....I wish i will make a good decision...God pls help me!!!x(

This holiday,my $$ is abit tight...So pls forgive me....Ahhh..how guilty.I shud start my revision soon...Shud not delay any longer...i am going to organise myself....xD

Thank God for blessing me...My relationship with my brother is becoming more closer.Last time,he din even bother to ask abt my work,ask him to do a favour for me,he refuse immediately.Now,i ask him maths question for 1 hr,he patiently explain to me...Even b4 the chinese paper,he talk to me to help me to relieve stress...Can see that his thinking now is really an adult's thinking,quite matured.Thank God....

Thank God today my parents din scold me as i come home ok lar,to them is vry late.Cause i am doing God's work,God wun harm me de...Wahaha...Been receiving lots of God's blessing this holiday...

I realli shud nt....Nvr mind..Haha

2007-05-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

Haha...Long time din update...My blog having error...xp
My Mid-Year is so "BEAUTIFUL."=(
Then i kp kena insult by teacher in front of everyone,i am starting to gt irritated alreadi.I am nt sure wat is her problem with me.Dun worry,i will gt a result that u can't even insult in front of everyone abt me!!!x(
I am rather stress dis days,even though exam is over,but o lvl chinese exam is nt over.Gotta work hard,i did quite badly for my chinese,wat the heck..=(
I am nt allowed to go for overnight,sianz...-.-...I wan to go...WAA....Today is a fruitful day,1st time hit my goal,with 9 contacts...xD
I really want to thnk God for his blessing,today at Jp,that place is just like owned by we west D...Everyone of us are busy doing evax,walking here and there,see whoever wore a uniform,approach immediately.And another happy thing,first time shuting introduce herself infront of the contacts....Yey!!!=D
My next aim will be meet,Chinese A2 with faith.....Anyway,she will be leaving soon,wun see her face anymore...Haha...>=)
Today's lesson is boring,all 4 periods chinese periods,sianz lar...then miss yeong todae shout at us sec5,another problem with her......
I dun noe wat really is happenin to me
my temper has been vry bad lately.....

God i pray that i will find calmness in u.X)

2007-04-04T05:31:00.000-07:00

Today is a very interesting,tiring but happy day.Our Jss Co got sliver.I am so happy.Our efforts paid off.We have been practicing like mad for three months,only three months.Wat a difficult period of time for us.At first,our orchestra was not familiar with the song,so the song we played out frankly speaking is the standard of COP.
But as time goes by,thnk to mr wong willingness to sacrifice his time to practice with us,we achieve wat we have today.
He did not give up on us,and we are really thankful to him.=D
This is the first time i am so satisfied with wat we gt,with this result,i wud not have to graduate with any other regrets in CO.
I will never forget todays' adventure,i woke up at 4.30!!!!!-.-I was so angry,because when i go downstairs at 5.40,there is one 242 bus zoom past me.But the day b4,i saw at the signboard,it wrote first bus is 6.00am leh.I feel like boxing the person who wrote that stupid time on the notice board.>=) I take cab and reach at 5.45 ....After that wait for that slow huiru,we change into our costumes by 6.15am,tune our instrument.Then Liting our student instructor run the two song 4 times.Pack then take bus to the singapore conference hall,on the way there,we were so nervous.But the people over there keep saying believe in mr wong and ourself,thats a good encouragement words.
After we reached the conference hall,we wait for our turn to perform.While waiting,we talk to each other to relieve stress.After that,we carry our instrument to wait at the backstage for our turn.And when it is our turn,I was shivering and cold.It was so frightening,the conference hall was super quietAnd when we play our instrument on the stage,my mind was blank,I forgt the note and gong fa..But manage to visual arts.
After our performance,a lot people cry because of stressness.....And huiru our only solo sheng blow the wrong note..HAha..xp Nvrmind,after that we go watch other ppl performance,all of them really display their best on the stage,it was excellent.Then after that,we wait at the conference hall for the results.Due to the quietness,the ppl over there keep clapping and all of us thot that the judges had finish their discussion of the results..Lol..-.-
And then after about 30 mins,the result come out,and the person announce that jurong secondary got sliver.All of us was shouting like mad,that was the most happiest time of my life.Some even cried,because three months of hardwork was paid off.During this three month,we were chased out by the cher,scolded and punish...Its worth it.I really have no regret for saying yes to mrs ng to take part in SYF.If i din take prt,i wun be able to experience this satisfaction in my life..After this competition,i have learn that if we want something,we need to put in hardwork,we wud definitely get it.

Last but not least,thnx God for this blessing for giving us such good instructor and i will continue to have faith in u.
In future,pls let me rely on u more.Amen...

2007-04-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

Haiyo....This blogger very siao one lei...Everytime i wanna wrote sometime regarding my mood,it will not let post.-_-Yesterdae speech day was ok lar,but when we wear our costume down to canteen,our classmate say we look like the tiam sim de waitress..So sad lar..but is true.give me $100000000 dollar to wear on orchard i oso don dare.

Yesterdae i was bless by God.I nearly lose my head.=D We were walking towards Istana park,i was infront standing to wait for the green man.Suddenli,a giantic lorry dash past me.It was so close and if i wud take one little step infront,my head wud be lost.So scary..x<

Yesterdae i feel weird in our new restructuring grp.I wud like to mixed ard with different ppl rather than our own cg memebers.Dunno..I suddenli have this feeling.I hate to pangse my cg members,but i feel like i was the one being pangse.

Negative thots...Shuu..Shuu...=o

2007-03-09T00:11:00.000-08:00

Finally i could blog,i have been busy this days.Yesterdae's CIP is so meaningful...We went to Jurong Garden school yesterday.We are assign to take care of one of the kids there,I took a girl who does not have speech.At first,i don't feel confident of taking care of her.She is quite stubborn,only listen to the teachers over there..But when we were playing at the swimming pool,that is the time she rely on me....So fun...xDShe only could use sign language,at first i don't really noe wat she wants.Then actually she wants the toliet.Blur me..=.= I really look forward to the next sessions of CIP...I don't mind if i will have to go there 100 times....If there is help needed there,call me anytime.xD

Holiday is coming...Sian..MON and TUE me having CO camp.We r as SENIORS POSITION..=D But sian,need to carry my big instrument with my big baggage....This holiday,I expect to achieve:

A Refreshing Heart for God
More Blessings from God..=p
Be more focus to study..
Share deep with my shepherd or buddy...
Give support to my shepherd..
Spend more time with GOD..
I would not get sick easily..

Thank you God for all the blessing u bless me.
This holiday can either make me or break me.;)

2007-03-01T05:08:00.000-08:00

Super tired.~.~Just came back from the dunno wateva dinner =p ....The performance was super screwed up.I was watching shuting's gong,whether issit goin the right direction.Wat a mess,arh....B4 we go for our performance,I n huiru went to suntec to look at the career welfare.How disappointing..-_-We just wanna ask that lecturer where is the science booth tat is ard,and he link to other things...Haha..How interesting....Wat a waste of time....And we r even late for the rehearsal,end up,i did not even know what i am playing.
Well wat passes is alreadi the past,what matters is the future.If we keep on blaming our mistakes on anything,we wud nt be able to breakthru in life setbacks.God create us to be strong in facing the tests he give us.We shud treat it as a exam,pass it and let the new test God set for us to come.=)
I will prove it...We make mistakes last time doesn't mean we make mistakes foreva right?

Off to shower,do my homework and zZZZ.....@.@

2007-02-18T09:26:00.000-08:00

Ahaha...Today is the first day of new year.Time passes too fast,Goin to sch in two days time.~.`

Yesterdae's reunion dinner was quite ok...First time my bro wud sit with us to eat together..xD Haha...During friday,i spill out everything.I am nt doing well this days,keep having bad thoughts.Aiyo,Sure,i am a thinker and i like to link-link-link....But i thnx huiru for untying the knot in my heart"As long as u try ur best,they don't appreciate it is their problem."Yeh..thats right...Dun be so stress lar...Actualli compare to the n level period,this is still vry relax leh..xD

I am a perfectionist in nature,everything must be perfect,or else i will stress myself to do until it suceed.Wat a poor thing...Hai...Nvm...Yesterday was my first day of drinking wine,oooh..man..the taste is awful.>.< style="color: rgb(255, 255, 153);">

God,help me.x(

2007-02-04T05:13:00.000-08:00

Super stress.~!~..Tmr is my first common test of mathematics.
The class test super easy one i gt until so lan.Then after that,i do corrections,and found out my problem is i din read the instructions and just jump to conclusion,careless mistake.Gonna improve.
Yesterdae was a tiring day.I also officially announce that i am a BIG-HEADED-PRAWN.~.~
Cause i seldom walk to bugis,i even have problem finding the library.After i found it,i need to walk back to bugis mrt to find mother,but end up i walk to raffles city.Stupid hor?Raffles city let me recall of somethings.Forgt abt it.
But yesterday,i dunno whether its a blessing or what,cause i realise i have been relying on myself to find my way out.It really was hard,until i call someone to help me with the road.And i easily found the library.Is just like when we were serving God,we sometime tend to rely on ourself to find our way out or solve our own problem,but actually the easier thing is to ask God for help...
I also realise i have been rather stress out these days until i did not realise what blessing God have bless me.I almost woke up in the middle of the night everyday due to stressness,i thought it was time to go to school.My friends thot i was going to break down anytime.Can anyone give me advise to stop this symptoms?haha

>.< Discover God's gift and direction.

2007-01-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

Hai....Long time din update.I din noe wat shud i update.Today staying at home.So sianz~~~I am so unreachable.Hahah....I am rather busy from sch reopen until now.so sianz...That tues we went to republic poytechnic,din see much of courses.Only walk around,and i found the course which is turning medicine into food.Quite interesting lar...The one DNA study,woah..So cool.Next time can research how spiderman become spiderman.xD But one thing is that so tiring!~~the minute i got home,i just lie on the bed.So tired...~~~At the polytechnic,we saw joyce at the sports station..Haha..then we ask more about their poly studying system.I prefer having lecturer.At least i dont understand something,i gt someone to ask.But who knows,next time i may prefer ownself research rather than having lecturer?CRAp lar!!Then we oso saw our ex-Co Senior....xDAnd the main thing is,republic poly got dota.Only boys occupied the computer and the game is cs.-.-Its a fun experience.
Just now playing msn game,wah....My junior pro...I lost to her abt 2000 points...Shin hor?x(

God i pray fer more wisdom!!!!x)

2006-12-17T02:01:00.000-08:00

Hi...Long time din update.I am too lazy nowaDays.Tmr i am gtting my result,i have consider what i am gonna do if i fail or pass.I am quite scared...x( But have faith in God that i definitely can promote 1.Muahaahaa....
If i can't,i have other plans too...Haha..Well camp is quite ok lar.But i like encounter camp better.Becos that time my buddy is still there.what do people mean when they say unity of the grp?I really don't understand.I hope i can experience the kind of unity in a grp.That time i go share christ with kaining's grp,i can sense cherie is vry faithfilled.Haha...Shouting at popular.But i can feel the fellowship in their grp.xD
I am now left with less than 20 hours to tmr....OOOhhh..

2006-11-12T18:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterdae was such a bad day.Dun wanna talk about it.Yesterdae our shop was quiet.No one really come to bought something expensive.Omg...Then i,alice and jessi just stand there for 1.30hr.So boring.And is the first day of work for jessi.Poor thing.xD
I know now y some people don't like *****...Neh..they sux.
Going class outing.I pray for no "interferation??"Then still have shepherd class.Pray that i wun doze off at that time. =.=

2006-11-11T09:40:00.000-08:00

There is no such things as love your people like how God love you.God,u are too perfect..We as humans are impossible to be 100%.I can even declare after seeing what others have done.We human are selfish.But God still died for us..How gracious are you.
I am really disappointed and angry.ITs just all my fault OK?Happy?!.When people say they wanted to be more understanding,its a lie.They don't meant what they say.They only care about themselves.But my patience has a limit to it. x- /
This society is very competitive.Once you have not enough education,life would be tough.This is what i learn as i work.BUT,JUST NO ONE IS UNDERSTANDING ME.
Don't care.....I rather u not understand me than being hypocrite in concerning.HMPH...!!!

i noe who is really concern about me and who is not.I can feel it.Don't treat me like i am a dummy.

2006-11-10T08:13:00.000-08:00

So tired!!!Have been working for the past few days.Oh my godness,my back is always aching.But for money,REN!!I don't want to go back to the days where i have to rely on others for something.xD
Class outing is coming,i don't feel like going leh..Haha..Have to ask whether sat can off.But today is friday,it was really a busy day.I keep getting new stock for the customers.Is like exercising,I even forget to have my lunch breAk.People who would like to slim down,can be a sales assistant.haha...I am afraid tomorrow i will overslpt.Btw,the college of mine is 15 yrs.xD Then the Alice,which is my boss,she say i am 17 yrs old.Ya right,do i look so old?People say i look like 14 yrs old.Nt like my AH SO friend,who look like twenty whereas she is only 15+....
Bye,gtg do my devotions.
=)

2006-11-03T19:00:00.000-08:00

=) = >=(

2006-10-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

Haha!!!2dae so funny.I meeting trisha to go caregroup.But in the end,we overtake the bus and we have to walk the long road back.And is the second time already!!!!Can't believe i am such an idiot..Dotz...But todae cg is quite ok lar,cooking instant noodle.Even though is a bit of low.
NEVER MIND!!!!Next time our cg multiply,We would cook things that need a lot of people help with lots of ingredients....xD
Everybody is not perfect.All of us are sinners.Who are we to judge people?What right do you have to judge people?Are we not the same as those people we are judging?
We have been working very hard to outreach to people.I noe is hard,but i will still do it.I won't forgot my goal.Being slow is not a problem,but being procastinate is a sin.xD But most important,Our faith in God should not be slow.x)

More responsive contact.x)
Till i see u face to face.
Grace amazing takes me home.

2006-10-18T09:40:00.000-07:00

Yo!!!Long time din update.My com has been very retarded lately.It wud suddenly automatic shut down.How idiot!>.<
Have been playing my com all day long....I am still finding a job to kill time.But none ...So idiot.So bored.Lately,when i predict something,it would definitely come through.IS this some kind of "sixth sense?"So spooky.I have no mood to update longer.This is the best i can update.

i predict that tomorrow will be a very boring day for me.
And i need to wait for the "someone"for being late.
SIANZ ,SIANZ,SIANZ.

2006-09-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

Omg!!!I hate it when exam come.Have to study until siao.But i won't miss service,because its a way for mi to relax.But if can go meeting,then thats the best.But...AHHHH......Stupid!!I wish i could go to meeting.I donno,maybe 1 day i can go wen yu's church see abit.She keep calling me to go,maybe can go see abit.Ayoo.....Those who haven study now,u better study.Or else u will regret it.....Sunday i still have to help someone to tuition,Nvm.x)
Even though I am unable to bring ppl,but i will perserve.yupp,i no time to discourage.I can use my gift of teaching to teach people.I am addicted to the word of God.Amen!!!

2006-08-27T04:38:00.000-07:00

Wahah...So long din update liao.Lazy mah,cannot arh?Haha...xDSudden have the feeling of saying this.Some people like to have the things i want (NO OFFENCE) because they want to feel secure.BUT i tell you,No use one.In the end,you are still alone.U r still urself.Yes,you can snatch things that belong to your friend,but can u snatch away love?Family?Friends,maybe yes.In the end,the one who win is still not u.I donoe,i hate people to snatch away things even from their sister or their friend.But i look at what the person situation is,if they have poor family background,i forgive them.But if the person is someone who has everything,and still not satisfied,Then i will fight with the person to the end.>=(
But until now,no one did that lar.But there definitely would be A ONE DAY.I also hate people to copy.Ohh,that is my hatest of all.I say "yes",u also say yes.VERY FUNNY ARH?=( So annoying.Don u have ur own view?R u human?Do you have feelings of ur own?Views of your own?GRR..But,heck care lar.Dwelling in this things are wasting my time.But IF the person is reading this entry,If u are like that,Then is time to reflect on yourself lo.Haha...But i believe wun lar,Everyone has our own views de HOR!!HOR!!HOR!!-.*

2006-08-21T01:45:00.000-07:00

Hahaha....Hmm...this prelim exam quite ok mah.Especially chinese,i thought i gt b3,In the end i gt 70+..Very good liao.I din even think of gttin so high marks.Must lucky this nt n level.=)I must buck up my maths.xD I believe i will fail.this is 100.10000%, lor.I don believe i can't do it.THIS IS JUST ME.I DON HATE ANYONE,I AM STURBBORN WHEN I AM ANGRY.Don need to care liao.I dun care abt anyone liao.Just care abt myself.=)Huiru jiayou!!!Broke record!!!first time pass chinese,43/70!!Wahaha...I m gonna announce to everyone in the world.today go share christ.Oh IT suckz.no lower primary.Jolene just share to me something and i think bery true.Thnx shep!!!!x-D Later still have to go my aunt house to help her son tuition.Damn!!!!=.=...Wish his PSLE faster come,then i no need to help him tuition liao.YES!!!

2006-07-14T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hoho...wat a day.Just cum back home.Guess i am goin to bath earlier tmr.Hehe...xD Well,2dae is a fruitful day yeh?Btw,the one who tag moi tagboard.Let me tell u one thing.EEEEE....u pollute moi tagboard,type this kinds of words.I aso dun care lah.U not happi,dun read moi blog lar.I love christ.I love God.xD well,wat u want?I dun care u r which freak frm which country,sch or wateva.U come pollute moi blog,u choose the wrong person.Cause i wun gt a bother too much.If i bother u,i will be polluting moi personality.=)OLAROLAROLAROLAR..hey,r u a supporter for france?if yes...pls do not pollute moi tagboard.Cause i have the right to support some1 k?If nt....

2006-06-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

Sianzation.I keep borrowing books nowadays.Dunno y.2dae i totalli screw up my paper...Haiyo,hope i din fail.Fail also dun care liao..xDSo Qi gui....they say marine engineering gt alot of ppl choose,because they keep rising the salary.Then my father ask mi whether want to join marine engineering?I WAS LIKE...=.=I gt three factors i m nt suitable to go.
1.My maths is poor.
2.I am nt interested as there is more boys in marine engineering than gurls.
3.I like to b a nutritionist IF CAN DE HUA,even though is a very difficult course.
What poly?I would go according to my result.x) Dunno leh!!!I dun like prideful ppl.Means cannot be humble.See this kind of ppl,i either dun talk to them or else dun care.I du lan 1 leh.Cause i last time aso gt this kind of friens.Wah i was like goin to boil with heat.Spiritual life recently is quite ok lar.Just,i tink i stress myself too much.I have been doin revision even if nt willing.But i am eating the word of God everyday.x)Until fat liao....Yey!2mr can go service alone..Hoho...xD rejoice...meeting jo 10.30 at summerset.Dunno wat word describe mi the most?I can be alone,quiet,dun tok.But i can aso aso be noisy among my friends n other ppl.And at first,if u correct mi,i maybe a little angry,i cannot accept.BUT,after i calm down n think,i will slowly accept.But i aso dun like ppl who speaks without using his/her brain.I gt Panweibo new song.Thnx kimyue for sending mi.It seems that the zhou le yuan is quite scary?Later goin to c.

2006-06-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

hai....so tired.dunno leh....just now piar poa....i zhong yu understand leh.the ledger....Cause i pray for the holy spirit to b moi tuitor?blive it?=D Haiyo dunno....moi newspaper report,i onli do two onli.still gt eight left.so difficult...gan xiang 200 words?Faint.hmm....let mi tink.this few holidays i have been reading bks n doing bk reviews on moi own.I learn chemistry,poa n sec2 maths.Go clc2,then go do sow.Wah.....without any$ i aso can do so many things.Except for the use com that part.chemistry must gambatte leh.having given moi parents to sign moi report bk.x-p....He like want to sign dun wan to sign like that.Such a stupid result,din tear away jiu hao leh.Hehe...now i m working extremely hard lar.But i tink,the key thing is humble lar.If u nt humble,u do watever things aso no use de.I finish reading abt three bks in this holidays.Thats moi list of improvement.I m aso gambatte in moi english.x)sch reopen leh...sianz.=-(

2006-06-22T06:09:00.000-07:00

Haiyo.....Gt angry again because of them damn cbox.Like i gib it a damn?=)Hehe....todae had our first unit cg...Quite fun.I "stole"alot of food.Nowadays i realli very good in eating.dunno y?xD Maybe is because influence bah...Wahaha...Well,i actualli dun care abt ppl telling their things to attract moi attention.Cause if the person wans u to care,Y u go drop inside a hole when u noe it was dere for u?o.0I wan to b a good pillar for jolene.God must have his reason to place us wif different kind of shepherd.hAha...actualli moi way of serving God is"If God ask mi to do something,even if is beyond myself,i aso must do."Thats the thing that push mi to strive on despite i diasgree wif someone.But God realli Bless mi this four weeks of holiday.Actualli very funny,i was complaining this holidays..No $$$....Then God says in the bible "Not only so,but we also rejoice in our suffering ,because we know that suffering produces perseverance,character,hope."Then i was like....=(((Think...God r u pulling moi leg?I SUFFER FOR FOUR WEEKSS......U call mi rejoice?But i think God realli help mi alot this holidays.Did u c mi die of hunger?Did u c mi walk frm Jp to home,home to Jp until heat stroke?=) Nope right.Then i actualli quite scare for this week,because i don have e-z link card $$...U don expect mi to walk to bukit batok n summerset do u?Den moi mama hor todae morning suddenli gib mi $6 to take bus.I was like...yey!God do nt gib immediately,but he is never late.Miracle appear last minute...Which is quite scary lar.xDThen i realise i need to save more!!!!!!STop spending too much $$ on unecessary things.x))Lastly,God word is powerful.Once he say "I can do it"means i can.He never lies n he never broke promised.Is a matter of time.>.<....REmember,God do nt gib miracle immediately..But he is always on time.

2006-06-19T00:49:00.000-07:00

OMG....Nowadays,everything goes wat i dun expect.STUPID!I HATE ALL TIS.EVEN MOI CBOX ASO WANNA BULLY MI.I dun care....Like i care?$$$...everything $$....Can stop this $ issue?zzZZ...I DUN NOE.I DUN NOE.My goodness.2dae suxs!!!=.=...yesterdae suxs too.everyday sux!!!Can't help it.!I M RATHER HOT TEMPER THIS DAYS.$$$$$$$$$!!!!!stupid!!!!!!!!GO AWAY ALL OF U!!!!=.=

2006-06-16T02:53:00.000-07:00

stupid cbox.its nt working.Go creat a new one aso cannot.Dun care....wat the heck=.=....todae nt in good mood,nthin to blog.

2006-06-05T03:28:00.000-07:00

Hmm...Nowadays quite irritated.>.<...Camp is cumin.=D we r overnighting in sch.Hurray....Nber have this experience again.hmm....I realise i need more God guidance,i 2dae onli finish moi revision for sec1 work.Sec 2 haven finish.NOW then noe wat is 3 significant figure.Well,i always so unsure when I ask moiself whether can i do it?Well,i m thinking,if u say without action,no point.tmr having caregroup,XD Gt dryrun for co camp,i m in food comittee.Sianz...Nowadaes quite irritated easily,like yesterdae nite.Walao,heng i manage to control moi temper,or else i will flare up lor.o.0hmm...Gota go...Go revise moi work..Confusing...Hope in camp,God can realli impact mi on this particular "problem".

2006-05-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

So lazy this days.Tmr gotta work hard,2mr gt CCA frm 1-4pm...Wat the..=.=3 hrs,staring at the instructor face.Blahblah...Well I tue maybe sow with agnes,wed nt free,thur sow with Jocelyn.God,i pray that it will b a success.Then gt one Juying de,quite open.Gotta introduce huiru to her...=)My deep desire to noe u more!I want more growth!!!Want more breakthroughs...Woohoo....!!!Hmm....Gotta catch up moi study.Heehee,one day if u c mi nt online,u will noe i am working very hard for my studies.Mrs thai said that,i need to memorise moi format and learn to check.Hmm..Yeh....I wun gib up.The more shocking obstacles,the stronger i will face it.Because i m nt facing it alone,I face with God.Sat,we have North n West combine 2gether,the North sister is quite friendly....=)So cool.Lets start afresh,Look forward,Wat pasts,throw it away.Because looking back is onli Blocking our way for new Things to happen.Yeh!!!!=)))But tis holiday,how poor mi is gonna go through?God!!U must help mi...I dun care.Hehe=)

2006-05-25T02:36:00.000-07:00

Wahlao....~Todae so sian,in class nthin to do.At there play games,but the pictionary,quite boring.We r nt artistic ppl,how can we be able to draw?=}Damn bored.Wat r we goin to do 2moro?o.0But tmr 10.45am off...Yey!But next week study camp.~.~Whole day,wat the....I feel i should buck up!Prelims!Jiayou!I can de...This holiday i wun slack,like i will.With a lecturer at home,how can i slack?Summore i wanna do well.Sec 3 foundation Kanasai,don jiayou,how can?PIAR LIAO....

2006-05-23T03:33:00.000-07:00

Haha...Todae the talk is quite boring.Waste moi $15.!Go there tok tok tok,then our class damn childish!Lols~~Tmr more worse,Pe the whole day.~.~Die in front of ya..=P...Then after that go do evax wif xinyi and huiru.Wah...That time is alreadi 4+ liao...No lower sec.I onli do two.=Tmr continue.SOW...Hmm....Thurs gt caregroup,Friday gt CCA...=.=...Next Mon gt CO 2-5pm!!!!!HELL WEEK!!!!HAHA~~Goin to piar CME project leh,i dun wan to b the first to gt F for CME in sch.=)Maybe tues~~Ask Agnes first.=-pYesterdae Science centre is fun~~~Even though tired until todae nearly cannot wake up.=-pYesterdae,the primary sch pupils,hee...very cute.Especially the woodgrove,have a hard time handling them.But they r quite funny.And same family as mi,"SUANING HABIT"no no,Even super sour than me.XD..But is meaningful,saw one boy,he do for 30mins and we ask him whether want clue,he insist to do it himself.Wah!!I was like,i am 6 years older than him ,i m so shi bai~!Wahaha...After the volunteer work,we go play .Because no need $$ de,Dun play,How can?=)

2006-05-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

Actualli,i reallli fail moi mid-year..=.=...SO cham....Onli pass two subjects,=.=...Well,wat done is done,all i have to do is work hard the next term.I wanna find out wat realli went wrong,such an easy paper aso cannot gao ding.Go find out,hai....Quite disappointed.They say i everything know,but did i?I onli analayse the situation.x)Tmr gt field trip,summore is take care of Lower secondary kids~~MOI "FAVOURITE"SIAR.=.=I actualli dun like it.I flare up easily...Hehe=D Taking care of ppl must have patience,ppl like mi is nt suitable leh~~I onli bully kids,i don take care of them.MUAHAHA!!!

2006-05-15T05:36:00.000-07:00

Haiyo!!!2mr still gt one paper,which is listening,aiya,i alreadi dig clean moi ear le.Hehehe!!So sian,i wanna go the Da vinci code seminar de le,but too late.wahlao,y i everytime want de things,always nt fated to it de?=.= 2dae nithin to do,i memorise verses,i almost done the old testiment.=)Well well,realli quite bored lar,these days.Wahahahaa!!!But i'mlovin it.=)Nthin to blog siar.see 2mr gt anything to blog.this friend of mine,still haven change.She is always nt so confident in herself de.then in the end,her result not bad de.Haha....But she is a very good friend lar.Miss those times we have fun 2gther last time.X)

2006-05-10T04:09:00.000-07:00

Ha~2molo last paper!!!Then free leh...Nope 2molo gt shepherding!4pm!!!!~~~Haha=) Then 2dae very funny.I go buy holy com things,then no plastic mah.That auntie too busy,4gt to gib.Then shu ting go ask her"MIss,can u gib me a plastic?"Er...Being frank,nt sarcastic,but she is a auntie leh.Shuting go call her miss,i laughing all the way.Say tis kind of words face wun red de meh?Then the auntie immediately gib her even though she is serving other customer.Wahah!!Then shuting say,must sweet talk ma.But maybe moi pride too strong leh,if is mi,i cannot say tis kind of words de..Abit....Wish tomolo time faster passby!!!!Duno go where slack.Hai....Maths,gone case bah. Hehe...Especially geography,i slp while reading the textbk half-way.The rest,no need to say leh.=))

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